I can’t handle it. Even when one thing seems to be going right, I get a huge fuck you.
#me in class when i get the answer wrong
First of all i will not be giving away 100 books (If i was rich enough to give away 100 books I would but i’m an 18 year old who spends too much time on the internet). My giveaway is based off my 100 book reading challenge (there’s a full list of all the books there and you can also enlarge the photos above to see the selection.) hence the name for my giveaway. All these books are from the list i plan to read. So i haven’t read them all but from what people have said there are A LOT of good books here.
Secondly theres actually 102 books here. hehe!
Anyway if you didn’t know by now this is a book giveaway! *cheers*
- Now here is the link to my blog (tilly-and-her-books). You don’t have to be following me to enter this but it would be nice y’know? I’d rather people follow for the enjoyment of books and my cats.
- I will be doing this giveaway through The Book Depository so please check if they deliver to you before you enter
- Likes and reblogs count but be wary of your followers, don’t spam them please
- No giveaway blogs
- Just take a deep breath and relax. Have a good day alright?
- There will be…5 winners. Each of them will receive two of the books from above. You can also pick other books from the series that are selected.
- They will be in paperback and the covers/editions may vary.
- This giveaway ends November 1st 2014.
- Keep your inbox open and be prepared to send me your address.
I won’t stalk you.
Don’t hesitate to ask me any questions and also thank you to all of my followers and feel free to just message me anytime to talk. I think that’s everything…much love <3
I haven’t felt like myself for a while.. And I don’t know what it really means to be me at the moment. I’m just upset, there’s a lot that seems to be going wrong, and things that I feel that I have no control over.
First of all, I injured my knee really bad, two ligaments are torn and I need to get surgery which literally put my life on hold for at least 7 months.. While my friends are moving on, going to college and having fun, I have to take the semester off from college, with no friends, no life and still working (which I don’t even know how that’s going to work..)
I’m in this limbo state where I know what’s wrong with me but don’t have enough information to do anything about it. I have an appointment in September to schedule the surgery, but it still feels up in the sir to me at this point.
Second is my job. I work at a martial arts school, I’m the head instructor and run the school with all managerial responsibilities. It’s been about 8 months, and it’s been so stressful. I’m not saying it’s been all bad, I love my students and I love my martial art but I feel like I need a break a long break that my school can’t afford because there’s no one to run my school. And who’s fault is that? It’s not mine. I’m teaching classes with a near unusable leg and it’s making me feel miserable.
I feel frustrated in my love life too. I know this is my fault be used I’ve been so busy with work and school, pretty much having it run my life, working nonstop 12-13 hours a day six days out of the week. I’ve had small experiences with guys and while I’ve had bad experiences, I’ve had some amazing ones too. And it leaves me wanting more, more of an emotional connection, more physical, and more intellectual. I shod have created more time for myself and my life and my hobbies and it’s all been taken away.
Not being able to exercise has put me in a bad place emotionally too. I don’t know why everything is coming down on me so hard. But I feel like a Mack truck full of anxiety, stress and self hatred has com crashing into me leaving me in a heap on the side of the road. I feel like I’m degrading back into my thoughts in high school and it’s scaring me a lot. I don’t want to go back, but me self esteem is falling every day and I feel completely uncomfortable in my own skin. And I know it’s superficial, and I hate myself for feeling this way, but I hate how I look right now, I want to lose weight and be thinner. And it’s near impossible to do being sedentary.
I’ve been at the point in my life for several months now where I haven’t had suicidal thoughts, but the idea of being in a car and getting into an accident that didn’t turn out good for me wouldn’t be a bad thing. If I just died, or just didn’t exist for a while, it wouldn’t be a bad thing. And I’ve had people tell me that these are normal thoughts, but to have them come so much, but it doesn’t feel normal to me. I’ve been sleeping 10-12 hours a day, and losing interest in what little I’m involved in.
The worst part about all of this, I don’t feel like I can truly confide in anyone. Not because I don’t trust them, but because I don’t want to bother them, I don’t want them to feel my burdens and they don’t deserve to feel anything that I’m feeling, so I wouldn’t put it upon them. Most people think I’m fine right now, like nothing is wrong, I don’t know if I should be happy that I can put on such a good face or mad that no one can see through it. I feel out of touch with a lot of people, a lot of things, and a lot of myself and I don’t know how to get it back.
Before I was treading, but now I feel like I’m lost and struggling in a rip ride, swimming parallel to the shore stuck in the same place and not able to get where I want to go…
Sorry for the rant. I know I sound privileged and stupid, but I honestly don’t know how to cope right now and needed to get this off my chest.
Robin Williams street art tribute off Melrose in LA on 17 August 2014
This makes me sad
Cool ghost photography by surrealist photographer Cristopher McKenney.